How sexual assault helped me find a mission in life

This is a heavier topic today.

A lot of my topics lately have been pretty intense in the fact that they relate to sexuality, and marital intimacy.

I'm sure that many people are wondering exactly WHY I have suddenly (in the last 2 years) become so heavily involved with my Pure Romance business and sexual wellness and intimacy. I'll explain it to you.

**Warning here** I'm definitely going to share some experiences that are not so pretty to read. I won't be graphic with the details of the abuse, but I will absolutely be raw with the emotions that I experienced and the process that I've gone through during my short lifetime to get to where I am now.

**The Real Warning** This may be a trigger post for many, so I am truly sorry if this makes you relive trauma that you weren't prepared to deal with right now. I do hope though that IF this does trigger you, and you feel the need to share, I would love to hear from other survivors. I absolutely cannot offer professional help, but I can offer empathy to the situation.

Many of you may know that I was adopted. I talk very openly about my adoption and the fact that I absolutely believe I found a part of my family that I had been missing for a long time. I had the unique experience of being adopted at the age of 12, and prior to that living with my biological family. I LOVE my family (biological and adopted alike). In fact, I don't generally distinguish between the two. They are all my family, and they all love an accept me just the same.

^^^ That's the important part about my adoption. ^^^

Now the experience that I really wanted to talk about. At a young age (around 9, I can't be 100% sure) My family sublet our garage apartment to someone that my mom had known for quite some time. This wasn't some stranger that simply showed up one day. This was someone who, In my opinion, was known and trusted.

One night, I remember waking up to him sitting at the foot of my bed. He quickly shushed and reassured me that everything was alright.

Everything.was.not.alright.

That was the first night that I had ever experienced any sort of sexual contact.

I was 9.

This went on for a while. I let it, and I always felt guilty for my own trauma.

Deep down I knew that I could have stopped it at some point, but in my mind, I was also made to believe by my aggressor that if I allowed it to happened to me, that he would avoid my younger brother. Hindsight being 20/20 that was no guarantee of anything.

This was someone who abused my trust, and my family's trust time and time again.

I remember the day that we moved out of that house. It was a day with so many conflicting feeling for me. On the one hand, I felt sad to be leaving my home, my family, the life I had known as long as I could remember.

On the other hand, I was finally free of the perpetrator... or so I thought.

Fast forward to High School.. I was nerdy, and unattractive, and that suited me because nobody paid any attention to me. I didn't have to face any of the abuse from earlier in my life. I know that for many victims of sexual assault and rape, that this isn't necessarily the case. They try to find their identity in an over sexualized, hormone-filled world that is high school, and they struggle, and they overcompensate.

I'm not saying I didn't feel these feelings. Looking back, I definitely did, but for the time being, I simply tried to be as invisible as possible. I felt like I wasn't worthy of being friends with the wholesome girls. I wasn't wholesome. I wasn't even whole.

I wasn't bad enough to be a bad girl. I didn't want to be.

I was in limbo. Sometimes I was good enough for my friends, and sometimes I wasn't. Sometimes I was too much drama because I was refusing to address the real issues, and sometimes I had the wrong response all together.

The fact of the matter was. I still carried so much guilt for what I had been through. And I couldn't talk to anyone about it, because we don't talk about these sorts of things. We don't talk about sex when it's not enveloped in the uncomfortable undertones of shame, much less when it is.

I remember going to Sunday school and hearing the comparison of sexual purity being like a nice white picket fence. When you engage in sexual acts that's like putting a nail into the fence, and yes, you can seek repentance and remove the nail, but then there's a hole that you can't fill.

Being an adult now, I know that you can get wood filler and you can absolutely fill that hole. You don't need to feel damaged for the rest of your life because of a crime perpetrated against you as a child, but at the time, I fully believed that there was some shame that I would have to carry with me for the rest of my life. I believed that my worth was lessened because of the trauma that I had endured.

Fast forward again. I got married at 19 to the first guy who showed any real interest in me. We had our issues, and I was not equipped to deal with them. It ended in nasty divorce and an attempt to end my own life.

Thankfully, I wasn't successful, because down the road, I would find out that I absolutely was still valuable. I am so grateful for that knowledge and the fact that I wasn't successful in ending my short life on such a low note.

I have since remarried, and I now have a beautiful family, but that didn't fix everything. I still struggled with my internal view of my worth. I struggled with being intimate like many do--not only because of my trauma, but because of my stage of life, having recently had a baby, taking anti depressants, taking birth control, etc. It's all been something that I have had to deal with.

I had to wrap my head around the fact that these issues were absolutely NOT a punishment for what happened earlier on in my life. These were normal things that happen to women.

So when Pure Romance came into my life, and I saw an opportunity to educate women about their bodies, help them feel more emotional satisfaction from their most intimates relationships, and empower them to ask questions and have conversations, I took the leap.

It is now a part of my mission in life to make sure that women everywhere know that they are still valuable regardless of trauma or even poor choices on their part.

There is no reason that we should carry this shame, and disdain for ourselves throughout our lives.

We are valuable.

We are worth it.

We are women, not victims.

Please share.

** Today is Denim Day. You can read about it here to learn more about this movement and what it does to raise awareness for women everywhere.

How to be successful in Direct Sales

So I know many people are really wanting to know how to bring in extra money working from home doing direct sales.

Well here are my thoughts on the subject.

I've been in direct sales for 2.5 years now, and I've learned quite a few things along the way.

First of all, it does take work. You don't just buy a kit and have everyone's orders fall into your lap. It takes lots of work. You won't get rich quick doing direct sales, but you can make lots of money when you will put in the time.

Second, Consistency is key. If you are like me (a little bit of a free spirit) you may not like the idea of scheduling yourself. I mean after all, isn't the point to be freeing up your time? I have found that by scheduling my time for just a couple of hours each day, that I am much more successful productivity wise. This also allows me to do what I want the rest of the day, but there are certain "hit times" that I make myself meet. Sometimes the time of day changes. I can spend an hour in the morning, just the same as I do in the evening, and get the work done. So I schedule around life, but I make sure that I do it every day.

Next, Find a system that works for you. Just like I schedule my time, I have started doing the same tasks in the same order. For example, every Monday I do a motivational post, Customer Follow Up, and Hostess Coaching. Tuesdays are set aside for my team. I am always available for questions, comments, concerns, brainstorming, etc. BUT on Tuesday I won't schedule anything else. My focus is on my team, so if nobody calls... I literally sit and wait all day. Wednesday has a task, as do Thursday and Friday. A couple hours a day, and then I'm done for the most part.

Again, Stay a student! Always learn about the new products, their benefits, why people want them. How your customers can benefit from them. Spend a little time learning about them, and they will pay back in mass amounts. Also personal development is huge here. Always strive to be bettering yourself!

Another tip, and this was BIG for me, Build a team. It seems like a scary thing to do, and I waited far too long to go for it, but once I started building a team I found a whole new level of motivation. Now depending on which company you are going to be working for, the way that you build your team will vary. For me, I don't earn directly from my teams sales. This is what helps every consultant in our company take home more money. We all start between 40-45% commission at the lowest level. We can do this because We don't share our profits with our uplines. At the end of the month, we get bonuses based on how our team has done, but that money comes from corporate directly. Awesome right?


The last tip I'm going to share today, although there are about a million more I could share, is this: get on the phone. This was hard for me. I hate the phone. I think I sound like a crazy person, and it makes me nervous, but getting on the phone really makes a difference. You can have a coherent conversation, and your contacts can actually hear your excitement. It makes the biggest difference!

This can seem overwhelming, but pick one task to work on and it will pay off! Good Luck!

*****If this post has helped you, please share it with friends and business partners. If you would like to learn more about my awesome business in women's health and sexuality, please reach out! I'd love to have you on my team!

Intimacy is not a sin

One thing that has always sort of seemed off to me is the idea that we don't talk about our sex lives.

I'm not saying we should be giving the nitty gritty details to everyone. Don't get me wrong, that could get weird...


...But our spouse? We should absolutely be talking to each other about what we like, what we don't, what we would like to try, or have zero interest in trying.

So why don't we?


I'm going to give a religious thought here, so be warned...

I really truly believe that the adversary/Lucifer/Satan/what-ever-you-choose-to-call-him absolutely uses taboos on sex to drive us away from talking to our partners about something that shouldn't be scary.

He makes us feel "dirty" "guilty" "shameful" for wanting to be sexual beings in our homes with our spouses.

AND. WE. LET. HIM.


So why do we do that? Is it because our parents never really talked about it?

I think that as kids we grow up being told that sex is "bad unless you are married." "Wait until you're married." "Nobody wants gum that's already been chewed." Etc.

So we put a taboo on our sexuality and go into marriages pretty naïve.

We wonder what is okay to want, okay to do, okay to even talk about...

... and then we don't talk about it. We are afraid that our spouse will judge us, that they will think that we are dirty, or freaky, or sinners. Why are we afraid of our spouses judging us?

I think it's because we don't know what they will say, and they probably feel exactly the same way.

I also think it is a tool of the adversary to drive a wedge between spouses. There is no room for shame or guilt within an intimate relationship if you truly want it to flourish.

We need to start talking about this with our spouses.

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Breaking away from that thought for a moment, I wanted to share a few quotes from church publications. I'm LDS, so these will pertain to my faith directly. I also want to give the disclaimer that this is my understanding and is not meant to be considered church doctrine.

"Sexual Relations within marriage are divinely approved not only for the purpose of procreation, but also as a means of expressing love and strengthening emotional and spiritual bonds between husband and wife." -The Church Handbook


"Physical intimacy between husband and wife is beautiful and sacred. It is ordained of God for the creation of children and for the expression of love within marriage." -True to the Faith


There are plenty more that blatantly explain how important intimacy is within a marriage. None of them tell you exactly how to, or how frequently, and this is one of the big reasons that I feel communication is so important.

We should be discussing with our spouses what we are looking for. It should be an open conversation that warrants revision from time to time as you go throughout life together.


***** If you found something valuable in this blog post, or have more in depth questions, I am happy to answer them either through comments, or email. Also if you find value in the type of information that I give from time to time, and would like to host your own educational ladies' night, let me know!

One Thing Husbands and Wives Should Absolutley Know

A quick piece of info that I share at every party:

There's one thing out there, ONE THING that has made all the difference in our marriage.

It seems to me like it should have been obvious, but it wasn't, and so I thought maybe there were others out there who could benefit from this info as well.

We watch movies and see "sex" and "making love" as an on demand kind of thing where both parties are so in the moment, and it always works out wonderfully (at least in the moment) and both parties are just dripping with euphoria when all is said and done.

Unfortunately, as I have come to learn, that is just not the case.

You see there is a disconnect for most women between desire to be intimate, and actual arousal. It's much easier for men in the sense that arousal is so closely related to physical response.

For women, we tend to let our brains get in the way.

We worry about things that are over and done with, things that won't happen for another week, and things that couldn't possibly happen except as the worse side effect of the worst outcome of the worst case scenario.

And still... we worry about them.

We worry about the kids, housework, our husbands, jobs, etc. and then we let it overwhelm us, and it kills our arousal.

So even when we have the desire to be intimate, it's super likely that our arousal won't match.

On top of this, men and women experience sex SO differently.

Women on one hand are like conventional ovens: It doesn't matter how well you follow the recipe, if you don't do the prep work of pre-heating the oven, your recipe will turn out wonky! This is foreplay (physical, mental, emotional- they all play a part) and this is exactly why we need it.

Men on the other hand are wonderfully designed much more like a microwave-- ready to cook at a moments notice.

The two designs are wonderful, but so often we fail to remember our partners needs. Often we are impatient as far as the process goes. We try to skip the foreplay, and sometimes that's okay and the recipe turns out wonderfully. Other times though, we just need to remember the basics: there should be build up. We should put each other first.. And above all it's okay when the recipe doesn't turn out as planned.



** If this was news to you like it was to me, or maybe even just a good reminder, Please remember that this kind of information supports my business. I truly believe in what I do for couples, and all women alike. There is something at a party for everyone, and I invite all of you to reach out and see what I can do for you as a Pure Romance consultant.  

World Conference Review 2017

This past week I had the opportunity to spend 5 days in sunny Orlando. This was a nice break from the cold rain that I came back to here in Utopia (Utah).


While I was there, I had the opportunity to lounge by the pool, take some personal development classes, some business development classes, and to share in the success of over 1150 women as they walked across the awards stage for their 2016 accomplishments.


Some of the things that stuck out to me most were that these were attainable goals. Nothing that these women did was out of reach for any of us. In fact, I found that I was much closer to walking that stage myself than I had originally thought.

Of course, that means that my goals are changing just a bit, and I WILL be walking stage next year! One way or another, I will get up there!

How am I going to do it? Of course, I'm simply going to follow the instructions that I got from the conference classes. I realized that slow and steady does indeed win the race.

I'm truly excited about being able to share the opportunity this business is affording me, and therefore, I'm going to share the top ten things that I will implement this year in order to be on that stage next year.

1. Stay in your own lane. I've heard this time and time again, in many different forms:

• From my sponsor: Comparison is the thief of joy.
• From my team mates: You do You.
• From the fabulous Kacey Musgraves: Just ho​e your own row and raise your own babies,
  Smoke your own smoke and grow your own daisies, Mend your own fences and own your own crazy, Mind your own biscuits and life will be gravy.

2. Set goals: Weekly, Monthly, Yearly! Holy Cow, it should have been obvious that there was more to it than just setting a goal for a year, right? Well, it didn't click until this last week. How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time! So for instance let's pick some round numbers to make the math simple. if my goal is $120K for the year 2017, then I can break that down into $10K monthly, and $2500 weekly. Now, if you just saw what I did to give me a little bit of a cushion, or comfort zone, then kudos to you. If you didn't, don't stress. I'm going to break it down in another post, but spoiler: there are a couple more weeks in the year than 48 (4 per month). So if I hit my weekly goals, I'm going to surpass my monthly and annual goals! Genius right? I can't take credit, but I will break it all down soon for those of you who work from home, because guess what? This isn't specific to my Pure Romance business.


3. Be consistent: I heard from multiple women about the secret to their success, and it was simply that they were consistent. "Consistency is key" they all said, and in listening to their various systems, they are right. Every single one of them did things differently, but when they found what works for them, they stuck with it. I've got some work to do now.


4. Just do it! It's a little cliché that I'm using the Nike slogan right? Well, why reinvent the wheel? Just do it! When I've got a task that I don't like coming up... Just do it. Get it over with, and then I'm done. Right?


5. Share with everyone. I am a firm believer that this business has something for everyone. Maybe you just need some time out of the house, maybe you need some extra cash, maybe you need to know that you aren't alone in the struggles you face with your spouse. Maybe you just need to make some new friends, and maybe you just want a discount on the products that you know and love. This business has it all. I know that you can get these things from other businesses too, but where can you INSTANTLY bond over this kind of thing? I mean I do talk to women on a daily basis about the most personal aspect of their lives; their intimate relationship with their spouse.

When I was given the perspective of being selfish for not sharing the opportunity with the women in my life, it was a game changer. So if I offer the opportunity to you, Don't hate me,  Don't think that I see you in terms of money. Just realize that I see what this opportunity can do for you, and I want you to be able to have what I now have: sisterhood, confidence in so many aspects of my life, and yes, a little extra cash in the bank.


6. Stay a student: This is HUGE for me! I've always loved to learn new things, but in the last 5 or so years, I've stepped away from it because there were so many other things going on. Kids, work, college, my military career. There are plenty of things that have gotten in the way and I have used as an excuse to quit learning. Wake up 15-20 minutes earlier, stay up a few minutes later, Read a book, listen to audible while you work out, or listen to TED talks while you are driving. I can't tell you the differences that this is making for me, even in the past few days. My outlook has changed simply by taking a little time for myself.

7. Prioritize: This seems like it falls in line with everything else right? I had no idea how bad I was at prioritizing. I let my business run me, and I got nowhere, so here's my new priority list. I'm pretty excited about it. Top 5 priorities:

• My husband
• My kids
• Myself
• My Friends
• My business

That seem like a crazy thing to do right? Put my business last? I was sitting in one of my classes listening to someone talk about priorities, and I realized that I don't have to let my business run my life in order for it to work. The one thing that everyone seemed to have that I didn't was balance and priority. They all put other things first. So this year, yes we're 3 months in, but I'm DONE letting my business run me. I'm taking control, and I hope that this will reach someone else who will also take control of their business life.


8. Get out of debt. How is this going to help me earn more money? It seems like it should be an end goal for what to do with my money rather than how to earn more, right? Well, another A-ha moment that I had while sitting in one of these courses was about getting out of debt. By getting out of debt, I will no longer have to pay interest, and that will quickly save me money, and put a lot more in my pocket right? Genius! I'm not going way in depth here either because this post is already longer than I initially thought, BUT I will post about my plan for getting out of debt very soon!


9. Perspective is everything. This last little bit comes from our two final speakers: Hal Elrod, and Mel Robbins. Hal gave us the 5 minute rule. You can be angry or hurt or upset, for five minutes, but you set a timer and at the end of it, you say, "can't change it," and you move on. Then you choose to be the happiest version of yourself with the given circumstances. You can be pissed of or blissed out, but the situation isn't going to change, so just choose to be happy and move on. And right on Hal's heels, we heard from Mel, who gave us the 5 second rule (and not the one about food that falls on the floor) you simply count down 5-4-3-2-1-Go! and you do it... no matter what the task, no matter the anxiety that it causes you. Try it next time you feel anxious. 5-4-3-2-1-Go, and it's not nearly as bad. In fact I hate flying, and I used this during takeoff. I enjoyed that flight. It was fantastic!


10. Everyone's journey is different. Some will do this faster than others, and maybe you won't take off as quickly as you want to. I know two very successful women in this business (I know more than that, but I'm using these two as an example) One of them just won Rookie of the year. She is one of the top levels in our company, and did over $120k last year and her team did much more. And on the other hand, you have the other, who built and rebuilt her team multiple times, and after 9 years, is number one in the world for team building. This was no small task. She changed the lives of 81 women last year. So it just goes to show, that me and my four women sponsored, and $10k in my pocket can do big things. We just all do it differently!

We all Journey Differently

I've been thinking lately about the things that motivate us, and I've come to realize that it is always different, and always depends on the situation.



I do a lot of things for my husband and my children.



I also do a lot of things in order to be financially secure. Our goal is to be completely debt free in the next 10 years (house included).



These are goals that for some seem totally un reachable, and for others shouldn't even be goals because financial freedom is on lock down. It's done. It's never been a problem.


The point that I'm trying to make is that we all journey differently.


I was once told that no matter how hard I try, I was never going to be everyone's cup of tea. Why? because I'm me, and I have my strengths and my weaknesses, and those just are not going to jive with everyone out there. That's okay though.


Dita Von Teese once said the following, "You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there's still going to be somebody who hates peaches."


Go figure, right?


I can be the best me, and it just isn't going to cut it for everyone out there.


That's the approach that I take in terms of the business that I run too. You know what? Pure Romance may not be for everyone. There are going to be folks who assume that all I do is sell naughty things. They will judge me. They will assume that what I do is frivolous.


That's okay.


Just because they don't take the time to see how much I actually help women, doesn't mean that I don't make a difference in their lives. For some, it's leaving a bad relationship. For others, it's getting in touch with their bodies after children, or menopause, or cancer. For others still, maybe it's about finding out what they want, and how to communicate that to a partner.


In any case, it's different for them, and it's different because it's me.


So my plea to everyone who might read this blog is this: find something that makes you a better person, and go for it. Don't worry about what everyone else thinks!

Dear Mr. President

Dear Mr. President,


It may come as a surprise to many that you won. It doesn't necessarily surprise me because for years we have been looking for a non-politician to hold this office. You are a business man, and a project manager, and I am interested in seeing what you can bring to the table.

That being said, it is time to live up to your campaign statements... You know, the ones about making America great again. I suppose if you live up to your words, then there will be no room for people to truly feel disdain for your presidency.

Please don't try to be a politician. Be a business man.


As you enter this new project, remember that this will take years to complete. Remember that you are laying a foundation for growth, not rushing to build cheap retail space.


Remember that you are putting the Trump name on everything that you do, and this will have an incredible impact on your personal brand.


Remember that now your employees are all of the citizens of this great Nation, and that they have put their faith in you as the Nation's newest CEO.


Remember that great companies care for their employees more than their bottom line, and by keeping the employees happy, you keep the company in the black.


You must find a way to bring two extremes within a company together. You need to unify, which means you need to give more than you can take.


Don't focus on changing everything all at once. There is a saying about a dog who chases multiple balls never getting any of them, and I feel that that is probably true here as well.


Allow science to continue to progress. Allow people to be treated as individual people, deserving of rights and respect, rather than as a demographic. Don't worry about what will make you a popular choice. Concern yourself with truly leaving the US a better place than what you started with.


There is a great opportunity here. Make American great again, sure... but also, make America kind again. Make it a great place to raise a family again. Make it a place where you can chase your dreams again.


Make true the promises that will better the people. Listen to the people, they are the ones who elected you.


God Bless.